Written by French director and rockstar Cyril Collard, this book is an engrossing confession where it is impossible to keep hope and despair apart. This largely autobiographical novel is the story of a young, gay, promiscuos man, Jean, who, after being told he's got AIDS, starts understanding the meaning of love thanks to a nervous, morbid at some times, relationship with a very young girl called Laura: whem the end comes (there is an end, actually) Jean states he's understood what love means and his farewell sounds like the triumph of life rather than of death. Collard loved life; and life, which was not unsensitive towards him, gave him the possibility to write this remarkable story, with an outstanding style that reminds of both rap music and French symbolism.